I know i'm not the only one even though i can't find a lot of people writing confessions out there. I'm not trying to be cool by confessing i'm just trying to face my feelings in hopes of gaining some control before it's too late. In my defense i also am envious of mammas who have well behaved kids, i wish i knew their secrets. Some of my friends have said to me most of the times it's not the mothers fault, some kids are just different than others, i truly understand that aspect but sometimes i honestly think some parents simply don't try hard enough.
I think deep down i'm worried i'm going to mess this up, this most important job i'm going to have in my life that i'm being a little overbearing and i try to pick out people that are obviously doing a bad job to make myself feel better, saying things such as "this would have never happened to my kid" or "I can't believe she did this" etc...As if feeling superior has anything to do with how good of a job i can do.
I'd like to think i'm not the only person having this thought process otherwise it's a reason for concern and I'd like to hope that my friends and family will be graceful enough to talk behind my back lovingly if i end up one day going to the grocery store in my sweat pants.